New Outside Toys / Reflections

While I think Nate built this for his own enjoyment as much as Max's, the sand box is pretty much done and ready to be played in. Max does love it so its fun for him to have something to do in the back yard. Nate also had a good Craigslist find with the little slide. Max understood it right away except that he goes down head first (sometimes with his arms in front of him). At least its not very big that he doesn't really get hurt. Its just nice to have something that he is atually allowed to climb on!


Last Saturday evening we babysat for his friend so they got to play together and had a blast of course. One of Max's favorite parts is that we basically have to strip him down to come in the house in the evening now because he's so sandy and dirty and he loves being without pants and shoes/socks!






Otherwise we're still doing well. I'm starting to get sentimental about these being the last few weeks with just Max. Like Nate says, he truly is our best friend and I know everything is about to change a LOT in the coming months. I'm happy to be having kids so close in age so they can enjoy a close friendship but there are parts me that will really miss just having Max, and part of me that is a little sad knowing I'll never get that year with just baby girl. I know it will be a lot of adjustment for all of us (Max is a mama's boy and although he likes other babies, he doesn't necessarily like them on my lap...) but I know it will just make things that much more wonderful to have our family complete. I used to think I'd want more kids but besides financial/practical reasons I really just don't know that emotionally I could handle more than 2. I just don't know if my heart is big enough; not that mothers of multiple children don't love them all, I just mean for me I really feel like my time and emotions are better spent on fewer rather than more. In fact, the biggest thing I dread during labor is having to leave Max for 2 or more nights (which has never been done, only one night one time so far). The 3 days I spend at work each week are way more than enough time apart from him! (Although he is usually fine with his other family and friends when he has to be, I do want him to be well rounded!)

On the other hand, I am anxious to get things over with. I'm tired of being sore and easily exhausted and flat shoes! I'm looking forward to maternity leave being in the summer. I'm thrilled about all the pink that is about to come.
I do have some nerves about labor.... I would prefer to have some slow contractions instead of my water just breaking randomly and needing pitocin to induce contractions. I'd also rather not to have to push for 2 1/2 hours, and not have baby girl rearrange my bladder position on her way out~ but otherwise, with the wonderfulness of an epidural, I think I'm ready for this again....


So for now we just continue on, enjoying the blessings we have, with great anticipation of what is to come....